Scares in the forms of letters...

So today Dave brought the mail home when he came in from work. As I'm going thru the junk and bills i see a letter from my ob/gyn dr. Wondering what it could be i open it and read the words that would scare any woman. "Please contact our office immediatly for your pap test results" So I call and get transferred 3 times on hold for a total of 15 mins (which yes i know isnt all that long but when your unsure of what your about to hear it felt like eternity!) Finally speak to a nurse who then tells me she doesnt want to scare me (really?!) but that i had abnormal cells and they seem to be cerivical cancer cells. I have to have a biopsy done on the 30th. Hang up shocked, scared, in disbelief all the emotions you can think of. Ive been having a lot of medical problems and havent been able to get any answers. After talking to her and looking up cervical cancer on the internet. All the problems i have had recently are all symptons of cervical cancer. While i hope and pray I dont have it, it would at least finally be some answers to all these problems and trips to the er ive been having.

At first i was fine. You know telling myself i dont have it. But as I dropped my girls off to my dad's bc i had to work tonight. Laying in bed wh my honey looking a

t the girls baby pics, it hit me hard. How thankful i am, how happy i truly am and how i hope even if i do have cancer its caught early and I'm fine. And i love the fact that even tho dave had to get up at 430 this morning that he laid there and held me and it just made me feel so much better. Yes most days my girls drive me crazy and dave is like having

a 3rd kid. But i wouldnt trade them for the world. Im beyond grateful for my girls. They are my whole world and could never thank god enough for them. I love dave, i love the fact hes in our lives, that i can always count on him no matter what. So while im scared and nervous, I have never been more thankful for my lil' family!!!

How could you not love this?! Even if they do make my house a mess ;)

Love this man!